Wednesday, March 29, 2017

To Be Continued..



How Garth and Judy Met

It was October 1st 1946, me and four of my closest girlfriends decided to go Mardi Gra party after mutual one night at the Social Center. As soon as I walked in, I made eye contact with a young gentlemen across the room surrounded by all his friends. I had only been there for a couple of minutes when I saw him make his way across the room to me. All my friends and I stood there giggling. He came over and before he even had introduced himself he asked if he could have this dance. I thought, “Oh he’s cute..” as I looked him up and down. He was a fine young gentleman and looked great in his brown suit and tie. I said yes without even a second thought, I didn’t even know his name. I remember he was a horrible dancer, stepping on my feet every time we turned. Despite my soon to be bruised feet, he ended up being the only boy I danced with that night. We spent the slow songs giggling and getting to know each other. He was quite the charmer. As he was telling me all about himself, I could tell there was something about him; something different then all the other boys I had dated. He was bold, he said what was on his mind without even thinking twice about what I would think. This was something new for me, most boys try to “edit” themselves as they are telling you about themselves. Garth was not like that, as he was telling me about himself, I thought to myself, “This is raw material.” He had just gotten home from working the summer in Portland Oregon. After a couple of dances I learned that it was also his 18th birthday! The night went on and on like this until the very last dance, as the night was nearing it’s end I was starting to wonder if I would never see him again. As I started to look around the room for my friends, I couldn’t help but think that I didn’t want this night to be over yet. After failing to find my friends in the crowd I looked over at Garth who was still beside me. He gave me a small peck on the cheek and took my hand and asked me if he could maybe walk me home. I politely said yes, there was nothing I wanted more. It was a cold night outside and the wind was blowing pretty hard. Garth gave me his coat as we made our way home. I was staying with some girls that I was working with and I only lived a couple blocks away from the Social Center. As we walked he put his arm around me and pulled my close to help keep me warm. As we walked home we talked about school and how fun the evening had been. The walk home was short and as my house came into view I wondered if Garth had had enjoyed the evening as much as I did. He walked me up my front porch to my door, as we stood there in silence he gave me a hug and another kiss on the cheek. He asked me if he could call tomorrow and I told him yes. We said our final goodbyes and I walked inside. As I shut the door I leaned up against the door and breathed a deep sigh. What a night. As I was getting ready for bed I told all of my girlfriends about the whole evening. The ohed and ahed as I replayed the whole night over for them We giggled for about an hour, then slowly as the rest of my friends fell asleep, I stayed up. I could not fall asleep, I wondered why he had chose me. Why out of all the girls at that dance that night he had chosen me to spend the whole night with. That must mean he liked me.. didn’t it? I wondered if he would call the next day, I hoped he would. But as the anxiety and self doubt started to set in, I honestly did not believe he would. Right before I finally drifted off to sleep, I replayed the whole night again in my head one last time. It had been an amazing night.
When I woke up the next morning, I thought over the evening before. He seemed like a dream. It seemed impossible to me that it had happened. As I was getting ready for work I replayed the whole evening over and over again in my head. He said he’d call. I hoped he would but I kept thinking to myself that he wouldn’t. It had just been a one night thing, it would not go any farther then that for us. I had programmed this in my mind by the time I was ready to go to work. And right as I was about to walk out the door, the phone rang. My heart skipped a couple of beats. My friend answered the phone and smiled as the person on the other line spoke. She handed the phone to me and said it’s for you. I took it from her and said “Hello, this is Judy.” As soon as he spoke, I recognized his happy go lucky voice. “Hello Judy this is Garth, would you like to go out tonight?” His upfront style was sort of a shock to me, but I liked it. I quickly answered yes. He said “Great I will come and pick you up tonight around 7.” We said our goodbyes and I hung up. My girlfriends squealed like piglets as soon as I hung up. The rest of the day at work was a blur, it dragged on for days, I could not wait to get home and for it to be 7 o’clock
After work I went home and got all dolled up to my fullest potential. My girlfriends helped me with my hair and I wore my best dress. 7 o’clock came faster then expected and then next thing I knew there was a knock on my front door. As he came inside I looked him up and down. He looked very good, he was a very polished young man. I said goodbye to the girls and we headed out for the night. As we walked out side I saw his model A Coope sitting in my driveway, it was black. He opened up the passenger door for me and I got in. We went and got dinner and then he told me he just wanted to go on a drive. As we drove around town he held my hand in the middle of the car seat and we just talked about everything under the sun. He had an addicting way about him, as we talked I just wanted to know more and more about him. As the night came to a close, I could feel myself falling for me. When he dropped me off at my house, I wasn’t ready for the night to be over. He walked me up to my front door and gave me a big hug, as he was pulling away he leaned back in and kissed me. I was sort of in shock because I wasn’t expecting it at all. My eyes were still closed as he pulled away, when I opened them up he had a crooked little grin on his lips. He said goodbye to me as he made his way down my steps.
Going on dates became routine for us in the next couple weeks. We became inseparable. We spent every night driving around town in his car or down at the lake, most of the time we just spent talking. We could talk about anything, our conversations were so easy, nothing was forced. We were complete opposites in every way, but it seemed to work for us. He clashed most of the times but it never ended in a fight, we’d just laugh at our differences.
A couple of months had passed and Christmas coming near. Garth and I had become somewhat of an item. Not quite official yet but everyone knew that we liked each other. Wherever I was, Garth was guaranteed to be there by my side, and likewise with him also. Everything was great, until one night about a week before Christmas we were on a drive and Garth pulled over and turned off the car and told me we needed to talk. He took my hand in his and told me had something to tell me that might make me mad. He told me that when he was in Portland, he had had a girlfriend. He told me that before he had promised her that she could come visit him for Christmas. He told me that things were different back then, since it was before we had met. He told me he was sorry and that if I really wanted him to he would tell her she couldn’t come. My heart sank. I sat there for a couple minutes and thought over what he had said. I felt like my heart was pounding in my throat, when I looked up at him I didn’t know what to say. All I said was that it was fine that she was coming and that I didn’t want him to tell her to not come. He asked if I was sure and I simply replied yes and told him I was ready to go home. We drove home in silence and as soon as we got home I didn’t wait for him to come around and open my door I just got out and went inside. I went inside and slammed the door. I was feeling a mix of complete and total anger and a slight ting of sadness. What did this mean for us? What was going to happen between us? I went and got into my bed and just wanted to forget the whole night all together. Garth called the night day to apologize for the night before. I was very short with him and told him it was fine and that I had to go help with lunch and then I hung up. When Garth came over later that night we went on a walk. Not much was said and none of the problem was resolved. We didn’t see each other in the next week, I was too angry with him to see him face to face. Before I knew it was Christmas here, I hadn’t heard from Garth in a couple of days and I feared for the worst. I knew the girl had gotten into town the day before and I just imagined their reunion in my head. I couldn’t get the thought of them being together out of my head. There was nothing I wanted to do more then to get back at him. There was plenty of boys who would love to court me now that I was basically back on the market. Maybe if I did go out with one of the boys, maybe we would run into Garth and the girl. Now that would certainly make Garth jealous. But I couldn't ever bring myself to accept any of their offers. Garth called my on Christmas and we just had a short conversation just long enough to to wish each other a Merry Christmas and then we hung up. A couple days later he called me and told me he would like for me to meet her. I was repulsed at the thought but yet I still agreed I would. The next day he brought her into my work. Garth walked in first and flashed me his smile I had grown so fond of in the past months and in that tiny moment, it was almost as if the whole last week hadn't even happened. But that only lasted about 3 seconds and then the door opened again and SHE walked in. First of all, I can just say, she was nothing like me at all. She walked in with the shortest white skirt on, and a face full of make up. and I remember my heart sank even more when Garth introduced me as his friend Judy. Friend? FRIEND? just a friend? What about the last couple months? I knew we weren't an official item yet but we were definitely more than friends. Or atleast that's what I thought.. Now I wasn't sure. They only stayed for a few moments and then they left, and I couldn't of been happiest to to see them go. After they left, my friend and also the woman I worked for Mrs Nelson looked at my me and gave me a hug and said, "he doesn't love her. He loves you, I could see it in his eyes the whole time they were here, he couldn't keep his eyes off you." I definitely had not noticed what she was talking about.. But I hoped he was right.
I did not talk to Garth for the next couple of days, it was about a week after Christmas when I had a gotten a call from him saying she had left and he was wondering if I would like to go out to dinner with him that evening. Who does this kid think he is? Does he think he can pretend I don't exist for a week and then come crawling back to me as soon as his temporary girlfriend left. Did he think I was gonna let him get away with this? I was NOT that kind of girl... Or so I thought, but as he pleaded with me to go with him I finally agreed.. That man was such a charmer.
Things slowly but surely got back to the way they were before Christmas, minus a few fights here and there and him reassuring my jealous was not needed. He assured me they were only friends now. He told me she wasn't the right kind of girl for him anymore.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

T-MINUS 16 DAYS!!

but who's counting right?

16 days until I report to the MTC
16 days until I leave my family for 18 months
16 days until I become Sister Askerlund.. (no more sammy slim)
16 days until my life changes forever
16 days until I forget myself and get to work

and I cannot wait!


Saturday, August 24, 2013

heaven just got a little bigger

Early this morning I said goodbye to my best friend as Heaven received one of it's most beloved angels.

August 24th at 5:05 am Judith Leavitt took her last breath. 

As I sat there and stared at her, hoping, praying even pleading that should she would take another breath I looked at her and saw the face of Christ and I knew it was her time to go. He was waiting for her, along with so many others. I miss you already grams. I know you've probably already talked everybody's ears off, you're wooping them in a game of Greedy and you're sippin' on a Diet Coke WITH lemon. I don't know how I'm going to be able to go on without you, but I know I have to because you wouldn't want it any other way! You will live on in me and I will always strive to make you proud.

You are my greatest friend
&
I'll miss you every single day
Thank you for always being there for me. You always encouraged me to reach my full potential, you believed in my dreams more than I did. You built my testimony through your example and always radiated with the Savor's love. I don't even know how to describe you to people because words never do you justice. You truly were a little piece of Heaven on Earth and I feel beyond blessed to be called your granddaughter

Sunday, August 11, 2013

The Summer Heavenly Father Brought Me To My Knees

I am a strong believer that every experience, whether good or bad that we go through happens for a reason. Every moment of joy or laughter, moments that will stay with us forever. Every hardship and trial, that pushes us to our very limits & the very test of faith that brings you to your knees.

This summer consisted of all of that for me.

My spirit was completely rocked, my testimony shaken, and my faith  weakened..

but I never would of thought I'd come out
S T R O N G E R 
in the end.

Sometimes you need to be brought to your knees to realize that's exactly where you needed to be all along.

I'm so grateful for Heavenly Father and his perfect love he has bestowed upon all of us. I don't know what I'd ever do without the gospel in my life & my amazing family and friends. I am so beyond blessed with more than I could ever deserve


Monday, October 1, 2012

Unanswered Prayers

In the last little bit I have found myself praying hard then ever,
for comfort
for guidance
and just for help.

and it's been sort of disheartening that I haven't been getting much of an answer.

Until last week, I was driving.. listening the the only radio station in Sanpete County which plays just about a little of every kind of music and one of my old favorites came on: Unanswered Prayers by Garth Brooks. and it just hit me way hard! I have always loved this song but it was exactly what I needed to hear and fit perfectly in my mind and mended my heart. I am so grateful for the tender mercies Heavenly Father blesses me with every day. I know he is always cares and is always listening whether it be when I'm kneeling down at my bedside at night or driving in the car listening to Garth Brooks. He is aware of all of our thoughts, our trials and our hardships and he will never leave us defenseless. Sometimes the very trials he lets us endure are the ones that will define us and make us into the person we are supposed to be.


"Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers "

Saturday, May 26, 2012

GOALS:
 
BE HAPPY.
Smile at strangers.
Be better than I was yesterday. Try to improve myself everyday.
Treat others as I would like to be tre
ated.
Play like I'm a four-year old atleast once a day.
Make sure the ones I love, know I love them.
Read a book. It's been a while since I've had the time to just sit down and read my heart out.
I want to sit down with my grandparents and write down their story of how they met.
Appreciate the people who truely matter and who always will.
Don't be afraid of change, infact, see
k it out.
Meet someone new everyday.

Pass my math class this semester with an A
Get my Patriartical Blessing.
Live my life to the fullest and have NO REGRETS.Not fight with my family when I go home for the weekends.Don't care what others think of me, my opinion is the only only that matters.
Work out, everyday.also, eat healthier.Start getting more sleep. 8 hour
s puuuhlease!Spend more time with my grandparents.
Stop trying to avoid the unavoidable.
Don't hold grudges---forgive quickly.
Go to all 3 church classes every Sunday.
Go skydiving before I die.
Go snowboarding, for the first time! I live in the "Greatest Snow on Earth", and yet I've never been snowboarding..
Get a 4.0
Get a great summer job! and by job, I mean like 2 or 3!
Be more crafty, I would really like to learn to sew!
Take better care of my hair and just let it gro o o o o o w.I would like to one day get married in the Salt Lake City Temple.
Have LOTS of babies! haha okay maybe not loooots but I do want a big family.
I want to travel, but not to all the generic places everyone goes to, I would like to go places few have ever been.

My someday...

Because to the depths of me, I long to love one person, With all my heart, my soul, my mind, my body... Because I need a forever friend to trust with the intimacies of me, Who won't hold them against me, Who loves me when I'm unlikable, Who sees the small child in me, and Who looks for the divine potential of me... Because I need to cuddle in the warmth of the night With someone who thanks God for me, With someone I feel blessed to hold... Because marriage means opportunity To grow in love in friendship... Because marriage is a discipline To be added to a list of achievements... Because marriages do not fail, people fail When they enter into marriage Expecting another to make them whole... Because, knowing this, I promise myself to take full responsibility For my spiritual, mental and physical wholeness I create me, I take half of the responsibility for my marriage Together we create our marriage... Because with this understanding The possibilities are limitless.