As of Late

Wow.. isn't it crazy how in just the blink of an eye life can feel like it has competely changed.

This is the exact feeling I am going through right now!

CHANGE!

and I'm kinda lovin' it! Everyone who knows me knows how undecisive I have been about school next year and how I've changed my mind like twenty times.. (literally) but as time dwindled down... Decision time has come and I've made my decision on what to do next year. I will be returning t o Snow another year. I got elected to be a Student Body Advocate for next school year, which will bring about amazing opportunities for me that I am so excited for! I never everrr thought I'd be going back to Snow another semester but the more it is becoming a reality the more excited I am for it! Crazy how life works out sometimes.. :)

Loooove is in the air! Seriously I swear everyone and their cat and dog are engaged/married! Congrats Sean and Jocelyn! and Jon for finally poppin the question for Ms Emily! So happy for you guys! and all the other love birds in the world!

Russell is going to be home in about 2 and 1/2 months!!! Sooo crazy how fast that went by! Well in someways it flew by, but in others I feel like it's been decades since I've seen him! It's gonna be so great to have my best friend back!


Oh.. and there's this boy. That's all I'm gonna say.. but I'm keepin my fingers crossed ladies and gents.

Signs

Who here is a believer of signs? Goodness I sure am.. Sometimes I feel it's not a good thing but I can't help it. I just feel like certain things are placed in my life to point me in the right direction or let me know what i am doing is right from the man upstairs. His "tender mercies" I find around me every day and I am so thankful for the.

It'd be nice.. for once

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I've gotten to the point in my life where I am literally and utterly completely confused. I have no idea what path my life is supposed to take or where I am even going anymore. I used to feel so confident in my plan of life and in knowing where I was headed and now.. now I have no clue! One minute my heart and mind are telling me to do something and the next they've completely switched teams and are rooting for the opposite team.. (team meaning school that is) I cannot decide where to transfer next year!! I literally am so torn! In the fall I was completely set on USU! Like COMPLETELY! It just felt so right.. what with my major being Elementary Education and it just felt like a perfect transition from Snow. Then my heart--with the help of my friends started to consider staying at Snow another year. Possibly doing some student government stuff (scholarship) and it would also look excellent for future references, plus it's cheaper and I'd be good to do to finish my pre recs since I cant even get into my education program yet... So here I am trying to convince myself to stay down here and honeslty it's starting to work.. but then BAM! WAM! Another option comes up.. UVU! I know I know... I never thought I'd ever consider it either.. But right now it just sounds pretty good. Moving back up north.. to the actual "civilized land". I could definitely find a job.. unlike down here, I'd be closer to the fam bam and all my bff's that are coming home this summer! and it'd also be a good little transition place to decide if I am serious about this mission thing! so here i go trying to get everything in order for UVU last minute, like literally the scholarship deadline is tomorrow.. and after I get everything done and decided.. I go and do something way dumb by going to an interest meeting for that student government thing down here. And now I am TOTALLY TORN AGAIN!!
Sometimes I wish someone would just tell me what to freakin do! Because obviously I'm not good at deciding myself! I'm so confused! Ugh! So this is my vamping session of complaining.
Okay I'm good now.
Bye

Note to Self

There comes a time in your life when everything you ever wanted has changed.. because YOU'VE changed. And the things you wanted and the person you wanted aren't enough, because you deserve BETTER. Better than the old you would of settled for. Not that the old you was bad, it's just the new you has more hopes and dreams and the DETERMINATION to achieve them. ♥
-Sincerely Me

It's amazing how much as happened to me and how much I've grown up in the last two years. I would of never imagined I'd be at this point in my life and I guess I have you to thank for that. I'm so thankful for the people and things that have happened to me to get me where I am today, because there's no where else I'd rather be. Trials are truly blessings in disguise to mold us and shape us into who we're supposed to be. So thank you! Never regret the people in your past. They helped shaped your future

DECISIONS....

Transfer up to USU and start a brand new adventure?

Stay at Snow another year and finish the pre-rec's I need to get into an Education program.. and possible try out for SBA?

Orrrrr.....
Neither.
No school.
Move home
and prepare...
for a mission???

SCARY! I hate decisions! I wish someone would just tell me what to do with my life.