Dear North Carolina, can I have my best friend back?

Russell left on Wednesday..

I went over on Tuesday night after he'd been set up apart to say good bye to my best friend for two whole years. It was the hardest thing of my life! It felt so weird not being able to hug him. I was fighting back the urge. Luckily, Alexa was there for me to cry with and she gave me tons of "Russell Hugs". It's woird to think he's really gone. I just keep wanting to go over to his house or text him about any little thing. I already miss our night time walks so much! I wish I could have my best friend back... But I know Russell made the right decision. He is going to make such a difference in so many people's lives and he's going to change them for the better. I'm so proud of him. But that doesn't make me miss him any less....

"His absence is more to me than any other's presence."

It's funny how for you to get over the saddest part of your life.. you have to live your happiest.

I'm so freakin happy right now! Life couldn't get any better! School year's almost out, SUMMER here I come! Gradeeeation is nearing sooner and sooner! Freakin me out mucho! But I'll be okay! My Best friend of life is leaving for his mission in 2 and a half weeks. Pretty sure I'm gonna DIE! But I'm so proud and excited for him! He's gonna do so great! I LOVE YOU RUSSELL RALEIGH!

Us before seeing Iron Man 2! Love my bessst friend!



I love my life and the people in it! Best Friends for EVER! I'd die with out you guys!

Alexa, Kacey and Me ♥

"The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches."

I'm starting to realize that I'm the kind of person that holds on to stuff way too tight. I hate the thought of giving up on anything or anyone. I always keep the thought in the back of my head that some day it WILL get better. I'm coming to terms with the possibility that sometimes somethings don't always work out.. You don't always get what you want. And as much as you love someone, you can't always guarantee that you can keep each other happy. Somethings in our lives are meant to be just temporary.. things happen to you, people happen to you, all for reasons.. Everything happens for a reason... to teach you and help you grow. People have come in and out of my life, each leaving a mark and making me into the person I am today

PROM 2010!
Seriously the FUNNEST night ever! I love Alec, he is such a sweetheart!

Goal:

Stay mad, stay mad, stay mad, move on!

"I'm going to stop lookin back and start movin on. Learn how to face my fears. Love with all my heart and make my mark because i want to leave something here"

So in the past two weeks TWO of my BEST guy friends got their mission calls!


Russell Grant Raleigh to serve the beautiful RALEIGH NORTH, CAROLINA MISSION

Russell leaves on May 26th! Week before Graduation :'( I'm going to miss him so much! He's been my friend since I was like 4! Idk what I'm gonna do without him!


My other friend Paul Fisher got his call to Durban, South Africa!

Paul leaves the July 7th!

I'm so proud of these future missionaries for choosing to serve the Lord for two whole years of their life. This is all so bitter sweet! I'm so excited for my best friends, but I don't know how I'm going to survive without them :(

STARTING FRESH!

Everything Happens for a Reason!
...Right?

I'm trying to make this my Motto, buuuut sometimes it's a little difficult. It's sucks when things don't go the way you want them to, but I've decided i need to toughen up and accept it! I love my life and the people in it and there's no reason to be unhappy. I have the best family a girl could ask for and I wouldn't change my friends for the world. I'm healthy, everyone I care about is healthy, and Channing Tatum is still single! What else could a girl ask for!?? Nothing, I know! haha Everyday is an ADVENTURE and I'm so excited for all of them! I'm done with regrets and holding back, life is too short to not live everyday to it's fullest! I'm so thankful for everyday I am given and the people i get to share it with! People have come in and out of my life, each leaving a little mark and each making me into the person I am today. I love them for that.

So here's a little personal promise to myself for no more regrets, no more of caring about people in my past; there's a reason they didn't make it to my future, no more holding back and caring about what others think, no more holding stuuupid grudges against people and last but definetly most important NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY!