PROCRASTINATION!

I'm blogging when I should be doing my math review, studying for Bio final or packing!

Goodness.. What a crazy couple of weeks filled with tons of laughs, waffells at midnight and memories I'll never forget!! This last month of college has definitely been the best yet and I am surprised to say that I am going to miss Snow so much!! I have made amazing friends here that I know would do anything, friends that are amazing examples and have made such a huge impact on my life in a short amount of time! With only a couple more days left at Snow, I am starting to realize how much I am going to miss them!

-My roommates: I know we'll still hang out but it will be weird not seeing you guys every day! I love you all! Thanks for an amazing first year of college, glad I experienced it with you guys! Our year long sleepover is finally coming to a close... love you guys!
-Annie and Dustee: such cuuuute sweet girls and I always have such a ball with! lOVE YOU GIRLS!! Words can't express how happy I am to of met you!! Thanks for always being such amazing examples and positive influences in my life!
-C16 Boys.. for making me fat! Haha love our 2 a.m waffell/crepe/and brownie parties! i wish we could of all met sooner this year :( You guys are awesome!!.. Except Richard! ;)
-Brandon Hamatake: best big bro a girl could ever ask for! I'm really gonna miss him a lot next year idk what I'll do without ya! Thanks for always being there for me and letting me vent to you, you're the best!!
-Shon Hudson: leaves on his mission in June and I am so excited for him! But I'm going to miss him so much!
-Fab 5 Girls: I miss you guys.. We haven't hung out in a while but I hope you all know how much you mean to me!
-Tyler Cox.. If I pass Math 1010, I will have YOU to thank for that!
-S^2..K^2: Trick, Sleazy, and Bicky! Love you girls, always!
-Heather King, Ave, John the Ginger, Crush, Blue eyed Billy, N77 Boys :( Miss you guys! My whole ward! and tons of other people that would take too long to name em all! I'm so blessed to of met you all!

SO many amazing memories this school year! I can't believe how fast it went by! Feels like just yesterday was the first week of school! I've changed so much this year and I don't regret a single second of it! I've made friends, lost friends and found myself! ---that last part is basically the most important! (Hence why it's bolded) I really feel like this year I have become the person I have always wanted to be, but there's still room for improvement! I had so many great adventures this year and met so many people that I could go on and on.. but a picture describes a 1000 words. So here's a couple grand!

As much as I don't want this year to end, I CAN'T WAIT FOR SUMMER!! I'm sure this summer will be one I will never forget! Can't wait for all the adventures! I really want to start making a bucket list of everything want to do!


p.s Syd Mon... I can't wait to see youuuuuu!!!

Let's be realistic, you have no idea how much I miss you

Dear Cassidy Rice,

Aka my cheese nummy buddy! Words can't express how much I miss you! And the stupid thing is we live in the same house. I feel like things have changed so much lately and I hate it. I started out this school year with you being my best friend and I feel like recently we've really grown apart and it makes me so sad! I know that since being at college we've both made new friends and you started dating Matt which is part of the reason we don't spend that much time together anymore, but I hate the thought of leaving this school year not being best friends anymore. I hope you know how much I love you and how thankful I am that you are in my life! I can't thank you enough for this last year of us living together. You may not know this but you have been such an amazing example to me! Thank you so much for giving me a calling, haha even though I begged you not to, I'm truly so thankful for it! And thank you for coming to the temple with me for my first time, there is no one else I would of rather had there by my side! Thank you for all the amazing memories we've had before college and this last year! Thanks for always being there for me and letting me whine to you about all my boy troubles! Thanks for always giving me the best advice and always being there to listen! I'm sorry for switching your mattress for your box spring, and that one time I made an event on Facebook about you and Matt getting married... heehee! :) Also, thanks for forgiving me! haha
You truly are my best friend, and I hope you know that! I hope this summer we can reconnect and spend tons of time together under the sun with tanning oil or sitting in C.J's!
I hope you know that whatever may happen next year, us living together or not! I hope we stay friends forever because I never want to imagine what my life would be like with you!!

Love you so much!!
-Running Bear Best Friends Forever!

Day 6. 5 ways to my heart

1. You have to have a sense of humor and great personality. I can't stand those boys that have to always be "serious." You have to be able to make me laugh! I want a boy that will laugh at me about stupid things that happened weeks ago! A boy who isn't afraid to be himself in front of whoever we are with. I'm a total sucker for goof balls, if you can make me laugh, it's hook-line-and sinker from there! I honestly can say that a great personality means so much more to me then 6 perfectly chizzled abs. Good looks are great n all, but the body of a god and the personality of a rock is NOT my type! Honestly, one of the BIGGEST turn offs for me is when a boy says he "can't" dance! Come on, EVERYONE CAN DANCE! Loosen up a little!

2. My family has to like you! Family means a lot to me and I know from personal experience how downhill a relationship can go if there's problems with each other's family. You have to be able to get along with my Dad, he scares most boys half to death. But once you get past his 6'9 height and that huge mustache; he's just one big teddy bear! Another thing is you have to get along with my parents. I could spend all day with them and you have to want to spend time with them too! My family is the most important people in my life and you have to get along with them great!

3. I want a sweetheart! I am in love with love, aka the "gaggy" stuff, I freakin love it! I need a boy that cares about the little things, like phone calls before he goes to bed just to say good night, little notes on my car, or flowers just cuz it's Tuesday! I'm a total romantic, and I need a boy who is too!

4. I want a boy who tells me I'm beautiful in sweats, a hoodie and my hair on top of my head. Someone I can be my total self around and not have to worry about him thinking I'm weird or something.

5. Honesty is KEY! I already have really bad trust issues when it comes to guys! Don't lie, just fess up and tell the trust because in the end lying will hurt worse. I am done with all the "John Tuckers" I am looking for a Noah!

I miss summer and this woman right here!!

1. I want some Lemonade pie, when you made it that one time, I left before it was done freezing :(

2. Can we be tan already?
3. I'm sooooo glad someone else's feet suffer from sock-suffocation too!
4.I wanna hike Timp with youuu!
5.Can we go to the temple a lot?
6.There's more... but I really gotta get ready for class right about now

Day 5. 6 Things you wish you could change.

It's always been a goal of mine to live my life with no regrets but I know deep down there is definitely some things I wish I could change. My decisions have gotten me to where I am today, and even though I am very happy with who I am today there is still somethings that I wish could of panned out differently..

1. Not spending more time with my grandparents while I was home! I wish so badly I could go back and I would of spent every spare moment with them! No I have to wait for the weekends I go home to see them, I miss them so much! And also I wish I would of spent more time with my Grandma Ellie when she was alive, I took her for granted and I wish I could change that.

2. How I treat my parents/siblings! My parents would do absolutely ANYTHING for me and still some times I treat them like dirt. It is a goal of mine to always appreaciate my parents and make sure now they know how much they mean to me. I wish so badly that I could take back all of the STUPID fights with my siblings and that we could of gotten along better.

3. Take back all the stupid fights I've had with my closest friends. Exhibit A: Alex Armstrong! I wish so badly I could take back how we were at the beginning on Senior year and how we were at the end. I was being a selfish stupid brat at the times when I needed you most! I'm so sorry Alex! On the plus side, those fights made me realize how important you are with me and I hope we NEVER fight again!

4. Not being on good terms with Brian the summer before he left, don't get me wrong I don't regret dating other people that summer because I grew from that and learned so much from doing so. I just wish me and Brian just could of been friends though during that because by the time we were back on speaking terms he was living in a month. But everything happens for a reason. That summer made me appreciate the amazing guy he is so much more!

5. I wish I could go back and do all of the things I missed out on. All of those great opportunities I passed up.

6. I wish I grew up more in the church so it wouldn't be all so confusing to understand now!

Day 4. 7 Things that cross my mind a lot

1. The future: What's to come... The future kinda scares me because I'm so unsure of what will come but I also cannot wait to find out where my life takes me!

2. Money! Ah, I wish I had more of it so I never had to worry where I'll get money for this or for that.

3. My grandparents, they are the most amazing people I know! They are both 82, they are pretty healthy but their age scares me! I don't even want to imagine what my life would be like without them, it makes me so sad! I hope they know how much I love them and how much they will always mean to me.

4. Who I will marry, I know... soooo stupid to think about considering I'm only 19 but I can't help it. It crosses my mind all the time. I wish I could just know who I will be with so I don't hurt people right now

5. The world around me, like the people in Japan.. I wish somehow I could help make a real difference for their lives.

6. My family, they're always on my mind, I always worry about them and I wish I could help them make better choices

7. My body, I wish I could change the way it looked

Day 3: 8 people that mean a lot to you.

1. My mom! My mom is the most amazing woman I know. She is the most caring and selfless person, she puts EVERYONE before herself! My mom is the kind of woman who can make a best friend just standing in the line at Walmart. My mom LOVES to talk, to everyone! She has the greatest personality and it just shines though in everything she does. I know my mom supports me in everything thing I do and she will always be there for me for anything

2. My Daddy! This 6'9 hunk-oh-man is my Papa Bear! I love this guy more than anything! He is the most important guy in my life no matter what! I know my dad would be there through ANYTHING and everything! My dad is the most protective man in the world, he's my body guard. He is my protector and I know he'd always keep me safe. My

3. My Grandparents! They are the most amazing people I know! They are the biggest sweethearts, both of them! I can't imagine my life without them!

4. My siblings! I know we don't get along very well most of the time but I love these 3 people more than anything! Even though we argue a lot I know that in the end they have my back! <3 you guys!!

5. Alex Arm! Best friend of life! All of my favorite memories you were right there by my side! You are an amazing person and I admire so many of your qualities! I'm so blessed to have you in my life! Thanks for always listening to me and helping me through all my trials!

6. Kacey Stack! Best friend of 7 years! You are the greatest, love you girl!

7. Sydster and Da Cr3w! I've only known you guys a few months but I am so thankful to have you all in my life! Especially you Syd, I love you with all my heart! You are like a big sister to me.. a big sister who is a midget, but still a big sister! You are so amazing and I am so glad I met you!

8. Wussell Wolly aka Russell Raleigh! Best friend of 15 years! You are such a stud and always there for me through everything! I miss you so much!