GOALS:

BE HAPPY.
Smile at strangers.
Be better than I was yesterday. Try to improve myself everyday.
Treat others as I would like to be treated.
Play like I'm a four-year old atleast once a day.
Make sure the ones I love, know I love them.
Read a book. It's been a while since I've had the time to just sit down and read my heart out.
I want to sit down with my grandparents and write down their story of how they met.
Appreciate the people who truely matter and who always will.
Don't be afraid of change, infact, seek it out.
Meet someone new everyday.
Pass my math class this semester with an A
Get my Patriartical Blessing.
Live my life to the fullest and have NO REGRETS.
Not fight with my family when I go home for the weekends.
Don't care what others think of me, my opinion is the only only that matters.
Work out, everyday.
also, eat healthier.
Start getting more sleep. 8 hours puuuhlease!
Spend more time with my grandparents.
Stop trying to avoid the unavoidable.
Don't hold grudges---forgive quickly.
Go to all 3 church classes every Sunday.
Go skydiving before I die.
Go snowboarding, for the first time! I live in the "Greatest Snow on Earth", and yet I've never been snowboarding..
Get a 4.0
Get a great summer job! and by job, I mean like 2 or 3!
Be more crafty, I would really like to learn to sew!
Take better care of my hair and just let it gro o o o o o w.
I would like to one day get married in the Salt Lake City Temple.
Have LOTS of babies! haha okay maybe not loooots but I do want a big family.
I want to travel, but not to all the generic places everyone goes to, I would like to go places few have ever been.

"The lord works from the inside out. The world works from the outside in. The world would take people out of the slums. Christ takes the slums out of people and then they take themselves out of the slums. The world would mold men by changing their environment. Christ changes men, who then change their environment. The world would shape human behavior, but Christ can change human nature." ♥

I don't know why but the last couple weeks I have missing Brian sooo much! It's one of the most terrible feelings I have ever felt. I feel like a part of me is missing.. and I just want it back. Brian is serving a mission in Tuscon, Arizona.

He just hit his 5 month mark a couple weeks ago. 5 months.. I know, that's nothing right? He still has so much more to go.. but it feels like he's been out for years. When he first left I was a total and complete mess. The first night was the worst.. I think I got a total of like 2 hours of sleep cuz I just couldn't stop crying. The next few weeks went about the same.. I felt like a zombie walking around. I didn't care about doing my hair or my makeup. Showering was a total waste of time. (joke) But it was weird, I just stopped caring about most things. Don't get me wrong I wasn't this emo depressed girl who walked around with streaming lines of mascara or anything like that. I probably looked the exact same to someone who doesn't really know me. Getting Brian's first letter from the MTC was just about the greatest thing ever! haha I got the same feeling as I would on like Christmas morning! There was nothing I wanted more then to just hear from him. Writing became a daily thing for us, we were so used to texting each other EVERY DAY for the last THREE YEARS that our letters started to feel like reeeeally long texts haha! We'd just tell each other every part of our days. It almost felt like he was here with me, and I with him. It's weird though, time felt like it was going in slow motion. Days felt like weeks and weeks felt like years.

I guess you could say I sorta started dating. Bad move on my part.. Well in some ways. In someways, dating just made me realize how amazing Brian is and how much I care for him. He's honestly the greatest guy I have ever met and so far I haven't met a boy who can even compare. On the bad side it just made me miss Brian even more. II also started to feel guilty about dating the LAST thing I ever want to do is hurt Brian and I know if I dated someone it would. Don't get me wrong it's not like I lock myself up in my room on the weekends listening to sad Avril songs. I still go out and have fun with my friends. Right now I am officially not dating anyone right because I just feel it's a waste of time. Most boys are douche bags. (pardon my french...) If someone worth dating comes along, I'll give it a shot. I'm not opposed to dating new people or anything like that just no one has struck my fancy. People always rag on me about how lame it is to "wait". But honestly I don't care, I'm doing what feels right. Who knows maybe Brian will come home and we'll date and get married and live happily ever after or maybe I haven't met the person I'm supposed to be with. I don't feel like anyone should live trying to stop something from happening. What is supposed to be will be. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

"It's not about knowing what your future holds, it's about knowing who holds your future"

Askerlund Family Christmas 2010<3

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be..♥

PEOPLE I WOULD DIE WITHOUT:

Kacey Alaina Stackhouse aka my BFF aka my sister!
"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out...."
This girl is my other half, she has been my best friend for over 6 years! We met on the first day of 7th grade, we both thought each other were sluts. (we were both wearing miniskirts, oh jr high...) But over the years our friendship has blossomed into more of a sisterhood. I know I can tell Kacey anything and her vise versa. She can always make me laugh whenever I need it the most. Kacey has a way of just giving me a look that can make me smile. She is who I run to when anything is bothering me and I know for a fact she will be there to listen and give me advce and she always lets me vent to her about boys. Haha Kacey is the kind of girl where if I don't like a person, she'll dislike them 10 x's more! haha she's just that great! Me and Kacey have had THE BEST MEMORIES together and I cannot wait for the more to come. I can't wait until one day my little girl marries her little boy and it is going to just be great! I don't even want to think about where I would be if we wouldn't of met. She has made me into the person I am today, and I love her for that.

Elder Brian Dell Tyrrell! My little Bri-Bear! Sucks having your best friend gone for 2 years :( This kid and me have been through every up and down you could possibly imagine and after three years we still care about each other. Brian is one of the most amazing people I have ever met! Anyone who knows Brian can vouche for this also, he is the funniest kid in the whole world. He can make anyone in the world laugh. He's made me the happiest girl in the world. I have had the best memories of my life with this kid. Times I will never forget. Haha when we first started dating Brian would text me, WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER asking if he could kiss me. I think the exact text was "smoochie?!?" So romantic huh.. haha :) When I look back on the last couple years, he's basically all I see. No one can make me laugh like he can. I've learned so much from Brian and he's made me into the person I am today. I know no matter what happens with us, he will always be there for me. Best friends fo life!

BIG AL! Wow.. I don't even know what to say about this girl besides BOO LOVES HER MOO! (No fat joke intended Alex) Alex and me met Jr Year of High School, our lockers were right next to each other. And all I have to say is I'm so glad Alex is her overly social self or else we probably wouldn't of gone to lunch together that first day of school and fallin madly in friendship.(alex probably laughed at that dumb joke.) I love how you do random dance routines in public places. People just love being around Alex cuz she has the best personality! I'm pretty sure Alex is the funniest person I've ever known! And HELLLOOOO, her laugh! It's just contagious! Alex can be laughing about something completely not funny and everyone around her will join in, not because of the funny thing but just because of Alex's laugh. It is the best, and I miss it so much. Who am I kidding? I miss her soooo much! My every day life just isn't the same without her! I wish we didn't live so far away from each other.. cuz honestly I feel like she's forgetting me :( Sob story I know but I just miss her a lot. Yes, Alex I hope you read this. I was never as up front with things as you so this is my easy way out. haha! Love you Alex and I hope you know I am SO proud of everything you have been doing! I couldn't be more excited for you to get baptized! I'm so happy for you!!!


My grandparents are the most amazing people in the whole entire world!My grandma is the most beautiful woman I have ever known, she carries herself with such class, I admire that so much. My grandpa is such a gentleman, I hope to have an amazing of husband as him some day. They are the most selfless people I know! I could ask for better grandparents, they are such amazing examples for me. My life revolves around them and I can't imagine life without them


RUSSELL FREAKIN MUSCLE! Elder Raleigh! Russell has been in my life for so long! Me and Russell have been friends for over 15 years! We go back to the good old Sunday School Days when I was in love with him! I used to tattle tell on Russell for opening his eyes during the prayer. I can honestly say Russell is my best friend. Anyone who knows Russell can vouch that he is by far the funniest kid alive. He just has a contagious personality that just makes everyone around him happy! I know no matter what me and Russell are doing it is going to be one of the funniest days of my life! Funny story, one random summer night me and Russell were trying to think of fun little random things to do and we decided we should stay at Walmart until it closed and then rule Walmart when no one was there. We devised a whole plan, we even went and looked at the bins in the storage section to see if they were big enough for us to fit in, after much consideration on the plan we realized walmart never cloeses, haha the end. Love this boy!


Elder Paul Fisher! aka Swisha Fisha! Paul is the biggest sweetheart you will ever meet! I know I can count on Paul to always be there to make any bad day turn good. Paul is such an amazing person and I am so blessed to have him in my life. This kid is my heroooo! miss him so much!!!


Cassidy freakin Rice. Wow... what is there to say about Cassidy! This girl amazes me. We have been friends for over 4 years now but just over this last year did we become very close, and now we are roommates together at Snow College. All I can say is there is no one else I would rather wake up every morning! Ha! Just kidding! Cassidy is such an amazing person, she is the funniest girl you will ever meet. I love her sooooo much, she is one of my very best friends! I hope she knows she is such an amazing example to me. Just being around her can brighten my day! Oh and she has the worst farts!!! :) hahahaha...


Sydney "Sugar Daddy" Monson: Sydney and I met over this last summer at Lake Powell because our aunt and uncles are friends and all I can say is I am sooo happy to have met her. Everything happens for a reason and I know for a fact there was a reason we met this last summer and that is because she is meant to be in my life. I love her so much, she has the funniest personality and I know every time I am with her there is bound to be 1000 laughs! Syd is like a wiser, smarter big(little) sister who I know I could come to with anything and she will always give me the best advice!! Sydney is the biggest sweetheart, it's impossible for someone to not love her! "LOVE YOU KIMMY!"

Oh West Valley Boys... Where would I be without you? Probably a little more sane! Haha just kidding! Wow me and these boys go waaaay back! What was it? Like 8th grade or something!! Wow so many memories with these boys! Ones I wouldn't trade for the world!! I love you guys so much and I miss you more then you know.


Granny Pack!!!! La La Looooove you! Me and Gratten have been friends since what... 4th grade? I love this kid more then anything because I know he's always there to listen to anything me and Kacey whine at him. Gratten is an amazing photographer and I know he has a wonderful future in front of him and I hope one day when he's big n face and he still remembers me enough to buy me a car or something? haha Love you Grat!



I'm blessed with so many amazing people in my life and I am so thankful for them! ♥

This the Season to be THANKFUL

I love this time of the year! I love the fall weather, I love family and of course I love a holiday, which is basically surrounded around the art of eating. Now that is my kind of holiday!
This time of year really makes a person think about everything they are blessed with.I love my parents! They are the most amazing selfless people I know and I feel so blessed to be raised by such outstanding people.
My mom is the most amazing woman in my life! I don’t know what I would do without her. I know I can count on her for absolutely anything. She is my rock, plain and simple I would die without her. She is a very big people person, she has to talk to everyone she comes in contact with. She becomes best friends with people in the line at the grocery store. I admire her so much for her kindness towards everyone. I’ve never heard my mom say one bad thing about anyone.

I love my Papa Bear! My dad is the best man in my life. He tries to come off as big and tough but really he’s a such a sweetheart. I love my dad’s laugh, there’s nothing funnier to be then seeing my dad laugh so hard he forgets to breathe and his face turns pure red, The Office is definitely something that will do that to him, he loves his Office. I love my dad because he's always there for me through everything. I know if I ever needed him he'd be there in a second!


I love my parents more then they could ever know! I appreciate every little thing they do for me even though sometimes I neglect to tell that that..

Bye Bye Mommy

Wow... Hey it's me Sam!
I haven't written on this in forever cuz things have just been way crazy and I have had ZERO free time on my hands. So much has gone on and happened. Guess what? So I'm uh.. in COLLEGE! How weird is that?? Ya it's freaking me out a little too! But I'm loving every second of it! I'm down in Ephraim at Snow College home of the Baaaadgers!


Oh ya, fierce I know hahah :) But I love it down here! Everyone is so friendly down here! It's so great :) But it is a little bittersweet being on my own. I miss my family and friends so much! It's a good thing two of my best friends Kacey and Cass go down here with me or I'd be so depressed haha but we're having such a blast down here! I love my new roomies! We have two brunettes two blondes and two red heads B.R.B baby! N78 Shawties! Always ready to party!




Basically I love my new roomie Emily! She's basically the ugliest thing ever. no really, so ugly its like terrifying. Okay.. okay.. thats a total lie she's probably the prettiest girl I've ever met and I totally hate her for it. We call her Comp. short for COMPETITION. hahah Em said the funniest thing the other day, "I just want a big black man that will treat me good and not hit me". It was so funny I just about died. My other room mates are way fun and way good cooks which is good cuz I never have time to cook. Oh and our microwave is broken... way lovely I know haha but besides that everything is just fantastic. Oh besides the fact that the two math books I bought are the WRONG ones and I don't even need them and now I have to go buy all new ones with money I DON'T have. Ugggghhhhhh :( Anyways on a brighter side everything else is great! I love it down here! Every night there is something going on. Movie in the park, Comedy Sports, Block Party and tonight there's a pep rally and bonfire and tomorrow is the first game! I'm soooo excited :) Right after the game is over I'm headin back to the 801 for Brian Tyrrell's farewell... :( So weird he's actually leaving. I've known this was coming for 3 years but it's weird that he's really leaving.. I'm gonna miss my best friend so much :( But I'm so proud of him and he'll do great! :)